01/14/2018
It's really amazing when I think how different a person I was ten years ago. For many years growing up, I always knew that there were so many unspoken truths and unknown lessons waiting to be learned, but I always felt they were just out of my reach and I had no idea how to get to them. I'm talking about things which were not really discussed in the mainstream of school or home, but ideas and concepts that were much deeper than I was even aware of at the time. It was a "knowing" that I had back then, but it still frustrated me not having any idea where to go and how to unlock those secrets I just knew were there.
Inch by inch and lesson by lesson, life started filling in the gaps for me. An amusing brief encounter early one morning with a psychic on the empty streets of Las Vegas... A horseback riding accident in the mountains of Montana ending in a chance meeting with a healer whom I had never met before, yet knew all about me.... a near-drowning kayaking experience on a Class III river in New York which showed me a major review of my life up to that point and told me that I wasn't ready to leave this Earth, just yet... an unexpected stop at a town's visitor's center to randomly pick up one brochure out of hundreds, only to get "lost" in town across the street from the place on the brochure. (I hadn't really been sure why I needed to go there, but I was led there for what would be a meeting that would not only profoundly affect me, but also a very good friend of mine as well, years later.) And I'm so grateful they all happened.
I knew I believed this stuff for years, but could never really wrap my head around it until the chances and coincidences were no longer just that.
I believe that life keeps sending you the same "lessons" over and over again until you really learn something from them and can move on, hopefully to a better place. Now I understand why the patterns of fear, failure and lack of faith kept haunting me for so many years.
I have learned, for my own personal experience, that life gives you what you are ready for, but only when you are ready for it. When I totally and completely opened myself up to allowing it to happen (without just saying it), and truly turned it all over to a higher power, it finally came to me.
I also know that "when the student is ready, the teacher appears." My teacher appeared to me that day I was "lost" in Sedona, AZ. It would be almost another year or so before the reason became clear for our meeting. It was New Year's Day 2007 and I was back in Sedona, with my healer and friend, Ari. We worked that day on helping me to connect and to see if I could actually "get it." That's when everything fell into place for me and I finally got it. I had my epiphany that day.
That's when I became this new thinker, this new person, this new soul who I am now. My life, my views, my observations, my interpretations, my beliefs, my non-judgements, and my spirit have all changed and are all part of this amazing new journey I am on now. I feel like I'm seeing the world and everyone in it through completely different eyes. It's the most comforting but yet exhilarating feeling I've experienced! I know that I can do, be or experience anything in this world that I want, and that it's all there for all of us to do exactly that.
I've already made several life-altering changes in the past 12-18 months, and more are on the way. I recently had another change of heart (literally) and I'm looking forward to seeing what will be in store for me soon. The universe keeps opening up to you when you open yourself up to it. It's an endless supply of wealth, peace, happiness, opportunity, love, understanding and hope that is to be embraced and shared with everyone.
I'm so very grateful to have had all of the experiences in my life that I've had so far. They were all just life's lessons being sent to me to help me along with my awakening. Regardless of the event that occurs in your life, be grateful for it and look for the gift in it for you. It's there for a reason and is probably a blessing in disguise.
Blessings and Gratitude~
Tanya