24/02/2022
This week I had an experience that left me SHOOK… down to the core: shifted, and changed
Rewind to a week ago at the girls night out event hosted by the amazing .borges where I walked around, got a little pampered and noticed a table for Bo***ir photography. I was intrigued, I thought wouldn’t that be a great anniversary gift for my husband in June… (all the while thinking, I’ve got 4 months to do squats, planks and crunches before/ if I even attempt to do this)
You know, Halsey probably said it best “I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors…”
The first time I heard that song I thought same girl, the second time I cried because I never want my daughters to feel that way, I don’t want to be the example of looking in the mirror and seeing all the things I want to change…
Fast forward to Monday, where a last minute cancellation opened a spot, and .boudoir asked if anyone would be interested… I thought about it for about 4 seconds and said yes, and then started sweating profusely
Luckily I only had like 12 hours to fret about it, and have that internal monologue of I am not enough.
I show up the next morning, knots in my stomach, puffy eyes from the lack of sleep, and am immediately welcomed by a cheerful excited face… (still sweating over here…)
The pampering started, hair and makeup and literally I have never looked so amazing, still sweaty but starting to feel it.
And then it starts, Rachel starts taking pictures, she says omg you look amazing and shows me… damn I do look good… it never felt weird, mostly I just spent time trying to relax my face, remember to point my toes and arch my back…
The reveal is amazing, I want every single one, and honestly can I wallpaper a room in these?? Asking for a friend here…
Going through the photos, and thinking wow I can’t even choose they are all so good… I have never felt that way about pictures of myself. I have never felt that good in my body, and I have never felt so confident in my life.
I thought I would do this as an anniversary gift, but the real gift… confidence in this skin I am in…
IT WAS ALL FOR ME