17/08/2022
So I’m a mom. Clearly right ^^hence the name! Also Im mostly hanging on by a thread. That’s where the manic part comes from I suppose! I have an overabundance of children, dont get me wrong I am glad I have them, but 5 is a s**t ton of kids to deal with every day. Their ages range from grown, too still small enough to be called a crotch goblin! I love my kids, all of them differently, yet all of them the same. Its an amazing thing, being a mother. You spend the first part of your childs life trying to keep them from falling down hovering them to the point of no return, and then you spend most of their teenage years wishing it was socially acceptable to push them down! Kids will make you happy, crazy, and criminally insane all in one conversation. You spend so much time as a mother wondering how your gonna survive it… the late nights, the early mornings and all the choas that comes throughout the day! You make it through sports teams, grade cards, school dances.. you read self help books and spend time with other moms trying to figure out what your doing wrong because trust me… your feeling like you have made a s**t ton of mistakes by High School age, and then your kid graduates! Bam- u think ur prepared for what comes next but your not! You can never fully be ready for your baby to leave you. Everyone keeps telling you s**t like; your fine; its not far; college isnt the same as moving out? What? Shut your mouth and shut it now… because my baby is leaving!!! She is chasing her dreams and she wont be back! Of course she will visit. She will be home for summer and everything will be fine until its time to go again! She is moving out folks and let me tell ya, this isnt one if those kids that leaves and gives up- this is one of those over-driven, over-achieving, one of a kind kids!! Her goal is more than a goal, its her future. Its not about if/ its anout when she reaches her goals! So Im holding on now but only to the memories bc my baby is not a baby anymore!
