28/05/2023
When your mom and best friend dies there’s a process. At first you don’t believe and stuff every emotion down. Then they all hit you at once and you need to take a day or two to just cry. I worked until 330 yesterday and today I just can’t. Tomorrow and all days forward I will. I just put dad on hospice and will visit him every day. I am always asking what the hell happened to our life?? But I am strong, just not today, and we will get through everything together. On a great note dad was out of bed yesterday and in his new wheelchair. It tilts back so he can be comfortable. I spent 45 minutes with him yesterday and he reminisced about mom a lot. He also loved the trees because for the first time since august I had him outside!! Just spending what time he has left is priceless!! Tomorrow I get back to life and being the strong woman I am but we just all need that day!!