07/05/2022
Meet Aurora! Aurora's birth went nothing like we expected it to - but then births rarely do. My body never went into labor. While we were checking into the hospital for my induction, Aurora showed signs of distress. 20 minutes later, I was getting a c-section. Our care team was phenomenal - kind, supportive, validating, comforting, & everything I needed in that moment. With their help and Jeremy's (who managed to keep me laughing through the scariest moment of my life), I made it through.
The 3 days we all spent recovering in the hospital may have been the happiest of my life. We were in our own little love bubble, with nothing to do but bond and navigate our new life together.
I will forget the uncomfortable bed, the sleep deprivation, nurses coming in every few hours, screaming in pain from a bad latch, and crying in agony trying to walk the 10 steps from the hospital bed to the bathroom, because none of that matters.
What I won't forget is looking down at my daughter sleeping on my chest while sunlight streams in through the windows and birds chirp outside and my incredible husband naps on the world's least comfortable sleeper chair. The way my stomach kept doing flips, that feeling you get going downhill on roller coaster, just from the magic of it all. I've never been more at peace.
But even though I felt emotionally at peace with my birth and my beautiful new baby, having a c section means that I was completely non functional for about a week. I couldn't sit up, lift, move, use the bathroom, twist, adjust, feed or clean myself, or even sleep without assistance.
Unfortunately, neither could the adorable pair of cheeks that I just birthed. But luckily for both of us, Jeremy is a superhuman who somehow managed to juggle a helpless newborn and a non-functional partner while deeply sleep deprived, all while showing us both that we are a gift, not a burden. I've never felt more loved and cared for and lucky than I did that first week, at my most vulnerable.
Since that first week, things have gotten much, much harder. But I'll save that for another caption. Today, I just want to cultivate joy and gratitude. She's here. And she's everything ❤