10/10/2024
Something unexpected happened the other day. This was the first time in more than 20 years anyone did this. And to be honest, I broke down crying.
These weren’t tears of pain so much as tears of gratitude. But I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t any pain behind those tears.
She Knew She Wronged Me
You see, the other day, a woman reached out to me and said that a few years ago she downloaded a digital copy of one of my books without paying for it. She wanted to right this wrong, repent to Allah, and pay me what she owed. As I processed her message, I thought of the many others who had downloaded (and even freely shared) my books and those of other Muslim authors without an once of regret or care.
They didn’t give a second’s thought to how this “harmless” act would negatively affect me or others whose livelihood depended on being compensated for our work — just as their own lives (or the lives of their providers) depended on being compensated for their time and work.
But because I’m Muslim and doing work that benefits Muslims, I don’t have the right to be paid. Or so I’m told by so many of my sisters and brothers in faith who genuinely feel that wronging me is their Islamic right.
I Broke Down Crying
So, I cried. In fact, I did more than cry. I actually *broke down* crying. It was an “ugly cry” that comes from a place deep inside. I didn’t have words right then, but I wouldn’t have at all sounded pretty to anyone who happened to overhear me in that vulnerable moment.
I cried because I was grateful, yes. But my tears went deeper than that.
Right then, I had to face a painful truth that reaches so much farther than illegally downloaded books.
Remember when I mentioned how some Muslims openly said they have an *Islamic right* to steal and share my work?
Well, they defend this by saying if I’m truly doing all this “for the sake of Allah,” then I wouldn’t care about getting any personal benefit, let alone money, for any of my work. [So, yes, they genuinely believe that only disbelievers and those whose work has no spiritual benefit deserve any share of the rizq (monetary provision) Allah has given them in this world.]
But that’s not the worst part...
They Have the Right to Wrong Women in Marriage?
I’ve heard this same argument used to guilt women into giving up their Islamic rights in marriage: “If you’re truly marrying him for the sake of Allah, you wouldn’t care about [insert any Islamic right, halal personal preference, or ‘high’ standard she has for herself].”
Yet, if this is really about marrying someone "for the sake of Allah", why is this same spiritual manipulation not used to guilt men away from enjoying *their* Islamic rights in marriage? Or even giving up things that are merely halal options (even when it obviously hurts their wives deeply)?
But it doesn’t stop there.
I personally had a well-respected imam tell me that a man has more rights to his wife’s soul than she does! So according to him, it is the man, not the woman, who gets the final say in how *she* protects her own soul from harm in this world.
But the saddest part is, once upon a time, I would’ve agreed with his religious misogyny.
But not anymore.
How did I heal and turn my life around?
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Love,
Your sister in faith and hope,
Umm Zakiyyah