10/05/2023
On the 7th anniversary of the death of Dr Sarah Moore my friend and colleague who I let down on many occasions not the least of them when she was at a time of her greatest need I've decided to write a little about our relationship.
On reflecting on her life and the time we spent together .. it's difficult to feel anything but amazement love and admiration for her particularly considering the appalling conditions endured as a young child as part of Anne hamilton-byrnes 'the family'
After our first encounter when she arrived at one of my workshops to bust me as a cult leader and a charlatan .. she didn't like cults very much .. she used to keep writing to me about how much you love me. I mean it was almost daily and it was certainly not romantic love she was speaking of.
Eventually I questioned her about it and she said as a result of her research and she was not only a medical doctor but she had a PhD in psychoanalysis ... she'd come to the conclusion that she couldn't experience love because of her long-term abuse at that hands of Anne hamilton-byrne and 'The Family'.
When I first encountered Sarah she was in her late 20s a motorbike riding, ecstatic dancing, enthusiastic, sexually liberated wild woman and her inability to experience love fascinated me because I've always thought if there's a problem, there's a solution. She died when she was about 45 so I guess our relationship lasted 18 years or so.
During that time we had a workshop that went for about a week .. it was called Love and Sensuality those days we later renamed it The Pearl of the South Seas .. amongst other things it resolved your sexual trauma and part of the process included your reinitiation into your sensual sexual nature a process that is simply impossible to describe with words.
You were very keen to participate but because of your experience with the family you developed a willpower I hadn't seen in anybody even remotely at that intensity. That was a problem because in the initiation process one had to surrender. So I made you attend two workshops and witness the initiation process on both occasions without participating in your own initiation experience. At the third workshop you did experience the initiation process, and quite wonderfully as I recall.
After the initiations of each round are complete, the participants gather in a huge circle all cuddling and holding each other and all talk is forbidden because the moment talking starts the magical elixir that becomes apparent during the initiations evaporates once people start to talk. This component of the workshop is called the nest.
Anyway at some point you left a nest and came running to me and said oh my god I Can feel Love.. not only was that a momentous day for you but for me also.
So baby I'm sorry to the hurt I caused you I celebrate the fun and wonder we experienced together and I look forward to our next meeting with a open heart because meeting again after moments or lifetimes is certain for those of us who are friends.
Love from here your friend David and here's a song for you by Cat Stevens wild world
One of my favourite songs, delivered by Cat Stevens in 1971