12/07/2023
REFLECTION:
I was right all along, you really don't love me or perhaps you did, but for a fleeting time only. Perhaps, you didn't have the guts to tell me straight into my eyes, that you fell out of love, that you no longer love me, or the feelings you have for me have nothing to do with love anymore.
You stayed in our relationship because of some lame factors; our friends, your connection with my family, and a mere company because I know, you hate the four corners of your room, and you don't like to be alone.
I was right, you were waiting for the right timing, for me to make mistakes. Mistakes which I considered, false accusation. This is the only thing I would say, I did nothing wrong with you. I didn't sleep with that guy, and I didn't make out with him. God knows that. 👆
I did'nt understand why you hate me that much, where in fact, what you've done in the past was way worse than I did. You slept at their apartment, backstabbed me, hoped to make out with them (or at least opened to make out with them), and exposed my secrets. I was angry at that time, yes, because I had all the right to be mad.
But, despite of that, did I listen to your side of the story? Yes!
Did I allow you to meet me even after what happened? Yes!
Did I forgive you? DAMN, YES!
If I was able to do that all for you, , then why can't you do the same for me?
Hmmmmmmmmmm, reminiscing what you said at the dark side of the building,
I now understand why you said it's better for you to believe I've done wrong, than to weigh things out for us.
You have to put the blame on me, for you to be finally free. (Nice move)
Perhaps, we're better off this way.
Wherever you are, I wish you well. Good luck on your next journey. Stay playing safe. 🤭