
04/23/2025
“Barrie used to get perturbed when I said that. He said in his experience when someone close to him said, “I’ve been thinking.”, it would either cost him money or mean trouble. I was/am always saying, “I’ve been thinking.” It did and does mean that I have a change or challenge of sorts in mind.
I have been thinking a lot lately, not just about us and our times together, but where I’m going from here. I’ve been thinking of the responsibilities I have, those I want to get rid of and those I never want to have again. This has led me to a point of inflection: do I stay where I am or do I make my move.
A close friend of mine dreamt about Barrie the other day. He told her to tell me that he was ok, that he didn’t want to leave me, but he had to go because he was in pain. He told her to tell me that he loved me, to make that decision, but make a decision that will allow me to live and laugh and be happy. He said life was too short and that we would meet again. Her dream was so precise. She said I was at my computer and Barrie was sat in his favourite spot on the couch and that he was looking over me…”
HforW Community Blogger and Hope Sister, Carmen Medina, writes her latest blog here: https://hopeforwidows.org/2025/04/ive-been-thinking/
Barrie used to get perturbed when I said that. He said in his experience when someone close to him said, “I’ve been thinking.”, it would either cost him money or mean trouble. I was/am always saying, “I’ve been thinking.” It …