11/20/2023
As of last week, hubby and I have started on a new journey. The winds are changing. The eruptions are being felt all over the world. Time to turn the next page. So, I have started journaling to my heart's content. Open honest feelings that so make me appreciate life. If you want to discover what is going on, please feel free to check back here often.... here goes....
ll/20/23
What showed up on my radar this morning. Got up once last night to go do bathroom duties. Came back to bed and fell instantly asleep and slept til 7:00. Powerful sleep!
This is day four of a gluten free diet for both of us.
Belly feels lighter. Did not snack after supper. I really, really had the craving to do so even though my tummy felt full. Instead I pulled each one of my fingers on both hands til the sensation went away. Habits, habits, habits. Urgings that the crazy ego wants me to follow. The ego wants me to fill up the space, to absorb every single minute of my day so I lose interest in the space and the emptiness of being with life. The ego wants me to ignor awareness and forget about savoring each and every precious moment as the moment presents itself. The ego does not want me actually breath and feel the energy of the breath. Naughty ego, but I do love it to pieces because it is a reminder that I need to pay closer attention.
Getting back. I also noticed more saliva in my mouth. I am drinking more water and loving the texture of the water as it goes down. New doors opening and opening to clarity which for me is getting to the root of what I need to follow through with as I go on this cleansing journey.
Yet this gluten free is fighting me with my ego. Now it will be a change in cooking and baking, which requires different ingredients and taking up more precious time. Wow and all this in four days.
What I am enjoying, as I smile to myself, is the muscle testing with Tom, especially in the grocery store. Learning how to read the strength of that muscle to see whether what we are buying is wholesome. So I am reading more labels. Not all gluten free is created equal.
With this all words are popping out of my mouth at the strangest times. Sometimes I hear an encouraging voice beckoning me on. Now I am rewriting my story, turning a new page, writing a new chapter in the book of my life.
Basking in the sunrises and darkness of the evenings. I am moving through the darkness with ease and grace. Just one baby step at a time.
It is all about paying attention!
Like I notice every time I close a door, especially a heavy door. I pay attention to my fingers. My fire finger on my right hand is finally healing after I slammed it in our heavy front door as I was closing it to go for a walk. Apparently, I was in too much of a rush and really jammed it. A few choice words spewed out of my mouth. It is much less tender now and the nail is stronger as I stretch and work with this finger on a daily basis.
Today I discovered that I am writing slower so I can actually read what I am writing without my glasses. Although, I did purchase a new three-way bulb for the lamp!
Since I have started this post, I feel more relaxed, my thoughts are quiet and focused. I am enjoying the breath!
So, as I shift into the coldness of the season and the bareness of the approaching winter, I am truly aware that the trees are truly exposed to the elements. They are NAKED!
This is what journaling does. It strips away the thoughts, like cleaning out the attic, so the mind is free of trash and debris. Thus, producing clarity to hear the messages of the Creator. Thanks Creator/God for the awareness and courage to put these words down so others may also have the courage to do so!
Namaste,
The Divine in me bows down to the Divine in you!
