06/07/2021
I have been on a journey of trying to believe "I'm Good" for many years. For so long, I felt this deep guilt that I was somehow bad. This came from childhood trauma, society, misguided religious dogma, etc. Even though I’ve done so much to heal this belief, it can still influence me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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This belief has caused me to give away my power, be dishonest with myself and fool myself into not speaking my needs and standing up for myself. I created issues in my relationships by not being fully honest about my needs, over-giving, and denying myself. I was too afraid to stand up for myself out of fear that people would see my desires as selfish, arrogant, or just plain BAD. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I didn't want people to see in me what I felt, so I hid my truth. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I martyred myself to be “worthy” of life to approve of me. Really, I think so “God” would approve of me, but the force many call God just doesn’t work that.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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So here's what I've been learning from “God”⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I am good "enough" to trust my inner voice to guide me even if my choices might upset you,⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am good "enough" to flow through life at my own pace even though my culture tells me to go FAST.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am good "enough" to speak my truth even if it is very different from the mainstream at the current moment. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am good "enough" to feel beautiful in my body even if it doesn't look "perfect"⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am good "enough" to be BIG, and if you can't handle it... that's yours to look at. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am good "enough" to make money doing what I love. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am good "enough" to follow my heart, receive love, give love, and create with soul. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I have learned that deep yearning guides me...⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
When I quite myself to listen, and I rise up for myself with courage... ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I step out of my self-made cage and spread my wings.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Yeah, I am "good" enough to fly. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
And so are you.