09/01/2015
Happy New year to all you beautiful ladies. Rather late than never. 2014 was a huge learning curve for myself and those around me. It took seclusion and a whole lot of deep breaths to reflect on my Life and where I am heading. Being transgendered is absolutely not for the faint at heart. To find myself in a world that looks down on us and still see above all the negativity was one of my biggest struggles as I progressed through my Transition to whom I was truly born to be.
Look up at the sky and aim for the heaven. Don't look down because you will miss the blessings that is been placed right in front and above you. Never fall over a obstacle behind you or under you, as you are already over and passed that. Take a deep breath and ignore all negativity. Set goals and work towards it.
People surprised me on how they welcomed me and invited me into their homes and lives. I thought I lost some of my friends and family for life... I was pleasantly surprised(actually flabbergasted) how I found acceptance from most of them. It has been a scary road that almost claimed my life. You can not travel this road alone.
You need the support of family or good friends that understand. I stepped in a trap that most of us do. We tend to become very self involved and even selfish to try and power our self's through the transition.... often forgetting about loved ones and their actual needs.
Have an open heart and accept that its just as difficult for them to get to know the knew you as you struggle to find your own self acceptance.
Don't question your Gender. Just be who you are. Don't put on a mask and fake it... it will only break it... and even maybe you.
Don't question your sexuality. You and only you know who and or what you are attracted too. What that is to other people should be on a need to know bases(or non of you business and even who cares).... or my new statement is... I don't know and I don't care. Life is to short to get hung up on who you love and or don't.
In the last week i read about 3 Phenomenal people that has lost their will to live as they struggled for acceptance. REMEMBER. IT DOESN'T START WITH THEM. IT IS YOU THAT NEEDS TO ACCEPT YOURSELF BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE.
Be Strong and break free from your mask
Lots of Love and may 2015 be blessed
Castina aka Kaylyn