I was the second youngest in a family of 6 children and I struggled to be noticed, I struggled to be heard. My father, a strict catholic and a alcoholic who used his leather to make his mark on us,
he used his violence to control us. We weren't brought up with inspiration and love we
didn't even know it existed but at the end of the day you have to receive love to know love. Little did I know ho
w much this four letter word LOVE and my expectations of love which was nil that in the years to come it was going to take me to some of the most darkest moments in my life which I look back now and still amazed I made it through them. There has been many times I have asked why me why did I have to live this life why was I chosen to experience so much pain and horror, how much can one person carry in this life. I can see now through those times I choose to survive I choose to rise up again and again with every little piece of my heart shattered I choose to survive. I have come to understand now why I may have been chosen to walk a different path to others who seem to just flow through life without a bump, I was chosen because I am strong and I was chosen because I will not give up. I have lived and I have experienced what others should never have to experience or see, A few of my closet friends who know of path have often suggested I write a book on my life they seem to think it would be a great seller. My story is not for sale it is now used as a guide for others, I have lived by a certain motto in life it's sink or swim I choose to swim. From the moment I signed up to the The Journey of the beloved Tarot my life changed, I opened up and released all that was no longer needed in my life the pain that had weighed me down for so long. I cried for that inner child who got left behind, I cried for every scar that now covers my heart , I cried for the person I had become she was my protector she was my wall and she was horrible, I cried when I released her , for I know longer need her. Through this experience my intent was for self improvement only but as I released the old me I also opened up to new insights and directions which has now grown into guiding others on there path isn't life a funny thing . I extended my time with my teacher and mentor Lynda Pearson and learnt to read the cards for others this is my new path and this is now who I am. We can never truly know why the universe chooses to do what it does but I know now that it's the way it's meant to be .
