24/07/2020
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When you try your best, but dont succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired , but you cant sleep.
Stuck in reverse. - coldplay (fix you)
Everyday defeat is important.
I remember my childhood days of clinging to the gate and swinging. Climbing and jumping from over the gate. Kicking , anchoring , knocking. Opening it for known stranger without fear. The gate is also a threshold, I step out to a different world everyday and Step in to the feeling, called home. At night my father makes sure the gate is locked, the utmost idea of safeguarding us. The gate always watched us play, allowed the passer by a glimpse inside. The gate became an interface of exchange of letters, gifts and food to the needy.
It opens and accepts all, does not discriminate.
It stands still against all odds, let's the wind pass by.
But that is not it , the gate fails itself each day. 'Neither side of a door knows what's on the other side of it. Except when it is open , when it is not even a door ' - jack Myers (Doorway)
Getting up, crossing the threshold isn't enough. Hope, pray, love isn't enough. We even may not be us, while failing. We may want everything but may not find us in everything.
Now, I kind of like the idea failing each day. It introduces one side of me, leaving me curious about the other side of me...